Friday, August 29, 2008

new developments and glints of hope

We got up at 3:30AM this morning in order to be at our appointment at the National Institutes of Health (NIH) in Bethesda, Maryland by 7. We were doing great until we hit the beltway - 10 miles left at about 6:15 and we parked at 7:30! Of course, that was only the beginning.

To be fair, Michelle and I left feeling great about every single staff person we met there - even the security guard who searched our car was courteous and helpful, giving us directions to the correct building on the unfamiliar campus. Although we were a little late, they got my vitals and I had the intake and physical with the RN and we were ready to meet the doctor in the examination room by 9:15AM.

Three hours later, Michelle and I had explored almost every means of entertainment available in the 10x10 room, including dizzying each other on the spinning stool, blowing up rubber gloves to use in improvised puppet theater from either side of the dividing curtain, and creating new tango steps. After exhausting our options, Michelle fell asleep on the exam table and, eventually, I ventured out to find out if we could go get lunch or if we were to continue to be confined to our room. About 15 minutes after I asked to speak to someone, we met Dr. Howard Fine, Chief physician of the Neuro-Oncology Branch of the National Cancer Institute. He apologized for the delay and explained that he had been reviewing my case for 40 minutes already.

Dr. Fine is a wiry man with an intense light in his blue eyes and nervous jitters in his legs. We both found him charming and his theory on my case very interesting. His reading of the reports and scans and the available treatment options was that the IMRT radiation I received was more effective against the tumor than the Temodar. His reasoning is that IMRT radiation is designed to avoid certain critical structures, in my case, the optic nerve and the orbit. Temodar, supposedly, will attack glioma wherever its found. It looks liek my tumor has not grown in the areas that received radiation only in the one direction where radiation was limited or excluded.

Before we met, he had already contacted the office of my radiation oncologist at HUP, Dr. Lustig, to get the details on the map of my treatment. He'd also contacted his radiation specialist and an associate at Mass General in Boston who uses the proton beam for treatment there. His preferred path, which he admits is unlikely, is that the radiation exposure within the orbit has been low enough in previous treatments that we can blast the remaining tumor cells with either IMRT or, possibly, the less destructive proton beam.

We also spoke about chemotherapy where he gave us some new perspective as well. Considering his theory above, he wasn't a strong proponent of resuming Temodar even with a new protocol. He did say this was a reasonable choice but considering my history he had other ideas. He was even less a fan of Avastin for my case - this is the other option that Rosenfeld and MSKCC have offered me so far. He thinks (as done studies that support his ideas) that CPT-11 (Irinotecan) is irrelevant for brain tumors and is just a holdover from treatments for other cancers. The case against Avastin is a little more technical, this entry is already long, and I am tired.

His recommendation for chemo was to pursue the older regimen for glioma, 'PCV'. PCV stands for Procarbazine, CCNU (lomustine), vincristine. Once again, his opinion differs from the norm in that he thinks that vincristine (an old acquaintance of mine from leukemia ) is both the main cause of side effects and the least effective of this trio so it can be left out. The idea here is that this treatment has been effective with glioma in the past but has superceded by Temodar as the standard of care because it is 'better tolerated' by the majority of patients. Since Temodar, by his thinking, hasn't been very effective for me, this is another good option to pursue in hopes of finishing off the remaining cells while they are still undetectable. Another ray of sunshine here is that vincristine is the only intravenus agent in the mix so I'd be on another oral-only chemo regimen.

So this is really the best news we've had for a while on the health front. There were several loose ends and we made plans to tie them off: I got a CAT scan while I was there with 'bone windows' so he can look for the bone condition that Dr. Gausas reported from surgery; he's going to follow up with all of the radiation guys and figure out if and what type of radiation treatment I could receive at this time. We should know more next week.

Now it's time for some sleep.

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Monday, August 18, 2008

some answers

We saw Dr. Rosenfeld this afternoon - she had the long sought after pathology report. To no one's surprise, the result is that the tumor is a recurrence. However, it is quite rare for adult glioma to leave the cranium and at some point during the conversation, she described this as a 'reportable case'. Good for her I guess?

HUP's treatment options are 1) Temodar again, at a lower dose but more intense regimen, meaning 21 days on, 7 days off for at least six months. 2) Weekly IV chemo, Avastin and Irinotecan. There weren't a lot of arguments either way except that Temodar will almost certainly be covered by my new medical insurance and will require less time in the hospital.

Other options include speaking with Glass at Jefferson again, who apparently has a radiation and chemo clinical trial they would consider me for and returning to follow the leads we have as Memorial Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center in Manhattan and National Institutes of Health in DC. All of these take more time, of course.

Rosenfeld's dreary news, delivered with typical aplomb, is that recurrences will happen and the time between them will decrease. I'd like to inject something hopeful and cheery here, but I'm fresh out of those. This sucks.

Saturday, August 09, 2008

Waiting ... and waiting ...

So, 2 1/2 weeks after surgery and we're still waiting for the pathology report. We had the two week follow-up on August 7, this past Thursday. We really like the surgeon, Dr. Gausus and she says she's been speaking with the pathology lab every day this week but they don't have a conclusive diagnosis yet. At this point, they say it's malignant and she's pretty sure this is a recurrence which is part of why it's taking so long. The pathology lab at the Scheie Eye Institute, I guess, is not accustomed to identifying glioma so they are now working with the neuropathology ab at HUP. I'll probably be working with my current treatment team for the next step. I feel like, at least today, I've surrendered my expectations about what happens next and I'm feeling peaceful about when and how the pathology report comes in.

I was able to go to Earthdance for the Permaculture course the last weekof July. This was an amazing experience and a wonderful way to spend a week of recuperating from surgery. I learned a lot about how to work with Nature even in the City and am newly inspired for many projects at home.

I also started my new job this week. Under my lawyer's advice, I'm waiting to discuss my health situation with my employer until there's a clear impact on my responsibilities there. So, another opportunity to practice patience. By the time I started on Monday, August 4th my eye looked fairly 'normal' so I haven't had to explain my situation as I feared.

In the meantime, I've connected our new DTV tuner to Michelle's video projector and set it up to watch the olympics on the wall above the fireplace mantle. Today is perfect for that while we receive the blessings of a series of thunderstorms this afternoon. I plan on waging another battle with the poison ivy in between storms later but I'm watching rowing for now.


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Friday, July 25, 2008

recovering...

This is the second day after surgery and my shiner is just getting worse. Mostly I've been watching movies with one eye while icing the other. The surgery went well - Dr. Gausas said she got everything she could see. The results from pathology might take as much as two weeks, though, so the verdict is still out.

On Tuesday, we got back from the hospital at 8PM and neither of us realized they only sent us home with a prescription, no painkillers. The big storms we had been waiting for to cool off the hazy weather were just moving in but around 10PM we figured out what happened and started looking for 24-hour pharmacies. I gave up when after I talked to someone at an all-night Walgreen who told me he had to talk to my doctor in order to fill a prescription for Percoset - I was ready to brave it on Extra Strength Tylenol. But Michelle found a 24-hour RiteAid in Roxborough and drove out into the hail and lightning - my hero!

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Monday, July 21, 2008

My Summer Staycation

So, between gas prices, house projects, taxes, and having to find a new job, we haven't gotten out of town too much this summer...

We both stumbled (at different times) on poison ivy that was hiding in the hedge in the front yard. I now have a plan of attack, though, and was able to make a significant dent in it this week without ill effects despite the heat.

Michelle and I escaped to Ricketts Glen State Park early in the summer for a weekend and, more recently, we got to spend a long weekend on the Chesapeake Bay shore with family.

The picture is me all dressed up for a job interview. I had a few interviews and I've signed on with the privately-held company in Media, PA as a 'Senior PHP Developer and Architect', starting in two weeks. This is a huge change for me and I'm sad to be leaving my free-wheelin' free-lancin' work with Lexalytics but I think it will be an excellent opportunity for growth.

If you are paying attention, you'll see that my right eye looks kinda strange in this picture. I'm not winking. I actually can't open my right eye entirely. This has been slowly getting worse over the summer and we got a special appointment with Dr. Rosenfeld three weeks ago. Two weeks ago I got an MRI and a spinal tap and it turns out there's some sort of growth in my orbit - this is what the doctors call the eye socket. This is unexpected news and as far as I'm concerned, completely bad.

I've spoken with Dr. Glass at Jefferson University Hospital and Dr. Judy at HUP and they both agreed that a biopsy is the next step because no one can tell if its a recurrence or something new. So, I went to the Scheie (pronounced 'Shay') Eye Institute today and five hours later, I have a biopsy scheduled for Wednesday, July 23.

The reason I'm going to a new facility and new surgeon instead of Dr. Judy is that Judy, skilled as he is, would have to go through my cranium in order to get to my eye. Dr. Roberta Gausus, orbital specialist, will biopsy and 'de-bulk' the growth (which she did not call a tumor, by the way) as an outpatient procedure, so I'll be in my own bed on Wednesday night. We should have the pathology report sometime next week.

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Monday, March 03, 2008

Not Dead Yet


Long time, no blog.

I am still alive and well and living in Philadelphia. Michelle and I bought a house in the northwestern reaches of the city and I'm busy with work trying to pay for it and working on it, trying to make it pay for itself.

The kittens are now a year old and have pretty much adjusted to their new home. They are not allowed outside here because our (larger) yard is not fenced in.

There's no baby news yet, thanks for asking.

I went to see Dr. Judy last week - he told me 'the tumor should be back by now - you should be dead.' But I'm not, so that's good. He feels I'm past the critical point - it's not over and never will be, but, statistically at least, I've gotten a lot farther than most. So take a quiet moment to consider those less fortunate. Thank you - now, let's party!

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Monday, August 06, 2007

Milestone MRI

A week ago, Monday, July 30, 2007, I had my first post-treatment MRI, which was clear. This means I've made it to 1 ½ years post-surgery without any sign of tumor. I haven't heard anyone mention the term 'remission' and I'm not sure that it's used for brain tumors, but I'm feeling some distance from having a tumor and this is great news for me. Dr. Rosenfeld wants to keep getting MRIs every two months for the first six months after treatment - that means through November 2007, then space them out to three months, and more. The catch is the insurance coverage. So far, so good for me, but she told me sometimes insurance refuses to pay and that ends up setting the schedule.

In other news, I've been working a lot this summer. We've had some short breaks and I was planning on doing a blacksmithing workshop right now, but I had to cancel because... last week was Michelle's big week for IVF and I needed to be around for that. I'll post any big news on the blog, of course, but things are looking good so far.

We're also seriously looking at houses to buy, which is very exciting. We're thinking pretty seriously about the Mount Airy neighborhood here in Philadelphia - larger houses with more space inside and out, quieter, tree-lined streets, and some very nice older architecture among other things make it very appealing. No offers made yet, but probably quite soon.

Michelle's show 'Disarray' for the Philly Fringe is coming up in early September - that means lots of work for her ( and a little for me as her 'technical director' ). September 2nd is also our first marriage anniversary, so we're going to get away for a day or two to celebrate.

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